S.Q.U.A.D.

They say friends will never leave you by your side,
Comfort you when you’re down and make you smile.
But what if one day they decided to leave,
Got tired of you and forget the whole thing.
It’s much more hurtful than a man, who broke a woman’s heart,
Sadder than a tragic movie and depressing as the funeral.

Pictures that was treasured will be deleted and be thrown,
Memories fading and stories are stopped being told.
Smiles are gone, my mind is disturbed
The tears are falling, feeling broken and hurt.
Never felt so alone, I’m missing my friend
The one by my side that helps till the end,

But those are just what ifs; I know this friendship will stay
Forever is not enough to explain what we’ve made.
Holding on with each other a problem can tear us apart,
Gonna keep it together, this journey is endless and every day is the best part.

 

~ wrote this poem the day na Eloise and Carlota leaved our group chat and stop talking to us. Ang sakit lang sa pakiramdam na bigla nalang sila umalis, not knowing the whole reason tapos di pa kami kausapin about it. Mas masakit pa mawalan ng friend amongst others kaya lahat kami na Boracay girls umiyak dahil dun, maybe they are jealous sa mga pinag popost namin sa Facebook na ‘squad goals’, I know naman na masakit din na ipakita na masaya kami even tho di kami complete pero the sole purpose of me posting those pictures are to make sure na ‘OKAY kami’ and that we don’t even need the approval of our department head about not choosing the hotel that he suggested, pero of course di naman lahat ng tao ganun mag isip so inintindi ko nalang sila, but that time is was so pissed na sinabi kong “so anong susunod, I unfriend mo din kami sa Facebook?!”, I was mad and sometimes (mostly even) I don’t even know what I’m saying if I’m mad. I don’t mean what I said pero I just needed to say those words, luckily nagakayos na din kami and it’s like nothing ever happened. I also told the 2 about my Boracay experience and sa wakas may nakaintindi din sakin, sinabi ko naman na kila Erna, Mariz, Karen and Rochelle about what happened pero sila Carlota (which has a baby na) and Eloise (which has a horny boyfriend) lang ang talagang makakaintindi sakin ng lubusan and it gave me so much relief nung sinabi ko na yun. I’m lucky I have them, they are the best, I will always treasure them at never will I question their friendship between me ever again.

3/30/16