Tired, hurt, lost and depressed.
Preventing myself from being happy even for a minute,
Setting my emotions aside is a bad decision,
Yet i continue to feel less and no one is stopping me from making a commotion.
Consumed by love and it's all coming tragic
Solitary life and my hand stays gripped.
My eyes are open but unable to see.
Been through a lot, I'm still missing and that i can never descry,
Effects are made, but i don't think it's worth it,
Nothing feels okay, everything is turning.
Alone in the light, my eyes can't hardly focus.
Hugging my pillow in my bed feeling hopeless.
I fear the day that when i wake up and don't give a fuck about anything,
and lately I've been sensing i no longer care with all the shit I'm in.
I'm so mad i can't even think straight,
Every goddamn time is wasted.
I wanna look in the mirror and punch myself,
and just feeling my blood dripping through my knuckles.
Curiosity kicks in again i'm screwed,
Can't help myself, i'm easy to pursed,
Tolerating this life i don't care if i'm ruined,
Committing a sin and not sorry for doing this.
~ i always don't know what i'm doing but this time i choose to do what is wrong and just be done with it. i'm so mad at myself but all i can do is to cry. I don't want to ruin my life but i just want to let this stress out of my system. Mama is gone and i'm out here wasting my life drinking and all this bad habits, i know she'll be so mad at me, i just wish i'd be able to hear her scream my name at least. i hate what's happening with me, i killed the old me and i'm regretting everything that I've done lately. i feel so lost and i hope someday someone would find me cause if no one did, i'll be stuck being lost forever.
