BABE 💕

I was lost until you found me,

Made my heart beat again and I'm forever smiling.

I wish for a guy but gave me a man,

Whenever i hear your voice, my feelings can't comprehend.

Sweet, caring; i feel lucky and blessed,

Always pinching myself to see if I'm dreaming again.

You make me laugh a thousand times in just one second,

I know it's a bit cliche but i think i found the one.

You're my inspiration, you're my everything,

Words aren't enough to explain what i'm feeling.

My day won't be complete without you in it,

 I forgot how to frown and i thank you for it.

Your hand fits perfectly to mine,

Your stare melts me every time,

I love the way you smile,

I love the way you laugh,

the way you kiss me so slow,

the way you hug me real tight.

Time stood still, our heart beats fast,

Every moment is perfect, i just want it to last.

Believing in destiny and faith,

Your timing was flawlessly great,

Let's make new memories babe we have forever to write our story,

You're definitely worth the wait, together we'll face everything. 

"Good morning babe, i love you, i miss you"

"Good night babe, sweet dreams, i love you, i miss you, *hugs and kisses*"

I will never get tired of hearing these words,
Replaying your voice which calms all my nerves,
Tomorrow is another day and i can't wait to say
I LOVE YOU every second of everyday.


~ just when i'm about to lose myself a man came into my life and help me get up. It's like in just a blink of an eye i'm happy again. He brings me back to my old self which I thought was lost forever. Being hopeless romantic, smiling for no reason, those butterflies in my tummy feeling, giving me inspiration and makes me not afraid to love again. Indeed his timing was perfect and i thank destiny for showing him the path to me. I love you so much babe. This will be the start of something new, exciting, breath taking journey and I'm glad that that he'll always be by my side every step of the way. 💕💕

Him again..

The bus stopped at your home town,

Wondering if you’re around.

I’m alone in a seat for two

And all I want is to see you.

Hoping that you decided to travel today,

Seat beside me and I’ll feel okay.

Cause I hate that I miss you so bad,

You make me feel like this again and it sucks real hard.

Seeing the streets that you grew up with,

Wanting to see more, shall I go down and cancel my trip?

This place is never familiar to me,

But just when I close my eyes and imagining you standing there I already feel happy.

Now the bus is leaving,

All the thoughts of seeing you is slowly fading.

Destiny has spoken, I’ll see you soon but maybe not in this place,

Never is a right time but I don’t care I just want to see your face.

There was never an us but I’d like the thought of it,

Rather pause reality and start daydreaming.

At least there I can say I love you everyday

And that you feel the same so I’d prefer not to stay awake.

You pull me closer to your arms,

Kiss my forehead and I feel warmed,

Nights are endless and it was calm,

Emotionally stable for a long time.

Nothing makes any sense,

I just need you by my side and feel your presence.

Simple things you do can turn my world upside down,

Your breath stables my heart every beat makes me not to frown.

-          ~Ugh, WHY. I suddenly miss that jerk, who’s so in love with himself, only do is to make girls fall for him then play around and eventually leaves, a guy that has good manners around my parents but still managed to hurt me behind their back, who gives sweet good morning and good night messages to god knows how many girls, a man that I once love even if he has that many flaws out in the open, the gentleman behind those smirks, and those bear hugs he made while we were staring at the stars late at night. Looking back at those memories, how we met the first time, the “kilig” moments, how he held my hand and hugs me, those heartbreaking news, the wasted epic drunk nights, those crying days, the acceptance and lastly the move on slash ready to meet another guys. I feel lucky to even be loved and to love by a guy like him, now he’s just a flash back and I’m glad things didn’t work out.

for Ninja.

One coffee can’t suffice you for a day,

Books distract you even miles away,

You sing at the radio and dance to its beat,

Make fun with the people we see on the street.

 Sadness is obscure, your joy is always flashed,

Fond of finding something that’ll make you laugh,

My hand is your safe place so you prefer to hold on,

Hug me real tight never leave me alone.

It’s hard to concentrate at something when you’re at my side,

I’d rather look at you and listen as you tell stories of your life,

You love stars as much as I do,

And that makes me like you more than I use to.

I plan everything just to make things perfect,

But you always like getting me distracted,

You only live once so you make the most of life,

“Carpe Diem, Come what may” you always say those cheesy lines.

We may not be compatible 100%,

But in the end “there’s always a possibility”

 as do everything that may happen in this bizarre planet.

*You're very special to me, I just hope that you know that. You brought happiness to my already-happy-life, sometimes I think that 'why am I this lucky' but I just ended up smiling and say 'nah, why do you even ask those things to yourself'. You make me feel those butterflies in my tummy, laugh by just looking at your confused face and just smile. Thank you for coming to my life.

NO: I'm not fine

I prefer to shut up even if all I wanted is to shout,

Sometimes things are better not to let it out,

I'm hurt but I yearn for everyone to see me happy,

It’s cliché to say but yes inside I'm dying.

Hoping is overrated; also love and forever,

Though it’s not too bad to expect for things to get better,

Memories are supposed to be kept and cherish,

But its hard if all those times will bring back the ache just by reminiscing.

Anger and sadness are often satisfying,

But I promise myself this will all me momentarily,

Things are bound to happen mostly good and occasionally bad,

Yet that makes life an adventure you never know what will make you WRECKED </3

Everything makes me remember the things we use to do,

But I'm still in the stage of not ready to lose the little things that reminds me of you,

Friendship was never a solution for this problem and I'm not sure there even is,

I just want to forget for a second this pain I feel.

Thinking that of all the people why do you have to choose me,

I'm a happy-go-lucky person but you make me question MY IDENTITY

Trying to understand,

trying to accept

Failing to comprehend,

feeling depressed.

Maybe 3 weeks isn’t enough, to call this something to fight for,

But my 3 days with you is one of the best memories that I want to go through.

I except too much in return I got hurt so badly,

Hard to make things as the way I planned at the beginning.

Playing sad songs that now I can relate too perfectly,

Crying through my pillow to prevent people from listening.

Photos reminds me how happy we used to be

Now I'm looking at it asking what’s wrong with me,

You made me strong, happy, blessed and lucky

At the same time down, broken, weak, and gloomy.

Things are over but for me still it’s not,

Waiting for you to text me hoping you’ll be back,

Your silence is killing me torturing me inside,

I want to know if you still think about me and remember that you once call me “MINE”

But after those it’ll all be in the past,

A bad memory that’ll make me laugh,

I'm just really thankful that I have my friends,

That help me get through this hell of a weekend.

*Wrote this poem for you, I hope that someday you'd be able to read this. Sorry for not telling you what I really feel, It's just hard for me to conceptualize the words to say 'that night' when we we're talking about us. My only regret was not able to say 'I love you', it seems too early to say it, but that's what I feel (or felt). Hope this won't ruin our friendship (nevertheless turn this friendship into something more *again). You've changed my life, don't worry cause it's a good thing. I still don't want this to end (or do I, IDK), I want to talk to you again, and this time I will promise you that I will tell you everything now. Please come back and talk things out...